I always strive to do all things in excellence and will continue to do so but God is showing me not to be so rigid about it. God has shown me that I can not put pressure on my self because it was affecting every area of my life. I expected everyone else to be like me, and that’s not how it is. In releasing this to God, I feel so relieved and find it much easier to walk in love. I still do everything in excellence to the best of my ability and have watched those around me blossom and step up a notch because teaching by our own good example is the key.
I have learned that there are twenty four hours in a day and how to balance those hours between family and ministry. God has put our family in a position to serve together and we are growing together like never before. Praying in the Holy Ghost has been the only way I have been able to handle all the changes that have come into play. As I pray in a situation, I get the download on what to do, or say and I am left in peace knowing that God has the person or situation in His hands. It has been a real faith builder to watch God provide EVERY NEED in EVERY DEPARTMENT that I have been working in. He has shown me how to get a job done in one department by utilizing an overage in a different department. God is so Good at showing himself strong in every area of our lives!
The Lord has been teaching me to walk uprightly before Him and by doing that, I shall not lack any good thing. There were times when I would find myself feeling like I was lacking. For example not having a car or some of the things I want but then I had to realize, ok what do the scriptures say? So I began quoting the Word over my life concerning provision. It honestly has grown me because I now I feel like I’ve been putting my faith out for things and I DO SEE the hand of the Lord making a way for me, when I didn’t see it before!
A big trap of the enemy is discouragement and he will use it to make you feel like you’re doing everything for nothing. Last week the Lord spoke to me as I sat in the very back row. He said “Faithfulness does not go unnoticed by Me” and immediately, it broke me. It made me realize God sees everything I am doing, and I have no reason to feel like I am alone or working for nothing. Through it all, I have learned to depend on Him. I’ve become so much closer to Him throughout this time because I’ve been seeking Him more.
I came to The River in 2005 with my mother and father. My dad attended The River Bible Institute for first year in 2006. I was always one of those people who said, “I will never, ever go to The River Bible Institute.” But, God had different plans. In the summer, before my first year I finally decided to move full speed ahead towards the things of God. I was sitting in my seat at the last night of Igniting a Generation when Pastor Todd started a River Bible Institute and River School of Worship alter call. I sat in my seat, and when it came time for people to go to the alter; I realized my heart was beating fast. I thought “no way, not me!”, but I knew I should be up there. I fought it for a good five minutes, and Pastor Todd kept the alter call open for a while. I finally decided to just go up, and I lifted off of my chair, and sat back down… twice. I did not want to come. But, little did I know that it was going to have such an incredibly positive impact on my life. Finally, I got up and actually went up to the alter call. The moment I got to the front I began to cry uncontrollably. I got an application, and didn’t apply for a long time. I actually changed my mind about going a couple weeks later. I was sure I was not going to go. But, then the day that Momentum got back from camp, right when we got off the bus Rom Dacosta pushed me up to Pastor Todd and told him I am coming to school. It became official; I am just going to go…..Rachel P.
It still to this day amazes me how God will come to confirm something in my life even if it is at the very last moment. One time was in the middle of my internship and I had made up my mind that I was going to quit. There was so much going on in my life that I couldn’t stand the pressure, the work load, and I felt like I was so far away from God. It was a Friday night and I was working late with the outreach department and I was planning to go to Pastor Todd on Sunday and tell him that I was quitting my internship. There was an IMSM College (student ministry) night that night so I decided to just go over and sit in what was left of the service. As I was walking over, I said “God, I’m done. I just can’t do this anymore, it’s too much and I can’t do anything right anymore.” Ben was preaching that night and he was preaching on the nations and what God had imparted to us was not for us but it was for other people and I remember that the entire service I just kind of sat there in an “out of it” state, too upset and distracted to really allow God to touch me. He did an altar call for people who felt God was burning nations in their heart and so I answered it but I had no reverence for the Holy Spirit or what He could do right then; I just stood there. When Ben came to me, the Lord spoke straight through him and he began to prophecy over me that everything I was doing right now, the place that I was at, was exactly where God had me to be. Everything I was doing and learning would be utilized for the call and plan of God over my life. It amazes me that God will never let us go. He will confirm His word in every way possible to let us know how much He truly cares for us.
In Matthew 13, Jesus tells two parables: the first about the Word of God being sown in four different types of ground and the second about a Pearl of great Price. The Word being sown on different types of ground represents the Word of God and the conditions of a man’s heart, man’s ability to receive what the truth of God’s Word. The Pearl of great Price parallels how once we have found the Truth of God’s Word, how strongly we recognize the Truth and what our resolve to keep and protect that Truth will be. God’s Word can only change us as much as we are prepared to receive it. This is determined be the “temperature” of our heart, or what kind of “ground” we have for the Word of God to take root in. It is, therefore, vital for us to keep our heart in a state of humility and thanksgiving before the Lord. The Pharisees knew the Old Testament forwards and backwards; and yet, they could not tell that the savior of the world had come. We can be in the middle of doing a service in the name of the Lord, even in the very House of the Lord and still not receive the Truth of God’s Word. As long as we are thankful for what the Lord has done for us, consistently acknowledging our debt to him that we can never repay and seeing that only by excepting what was done on the cross can we have salvation, we will keep our hearts in a state of readiness for the Word of God.
Pastor Rodney’s recent series on the word being sown into the hearts of men has been an interesting journey for me. Because of mental reconstruction process that God has put me through since I’ve been here; I had to learn how to throw away things that I thought that I had a good understanding about and receive the inerrant word of God without spot or blemishes. Initially, being brought up in a type of the word of faith movement back home in Panama City, we were taught about sowing and reaping a lot. Most of the messages were geared towards pastor giving us a manufactured conviction message about how we should be giving to his ministry and how to use the Word of God to break down and never building up. We didn’t see a lot of the flaws until our church split years later. I’ve learned under Pastor Rodney that to even be successful in your pursuits of God, you have to know the Lord’s heart. His heart is to be one with His bride, which is his church, which is us. In our pursuits of Him, we are destined, all of us, to find Him and to continue on in our lives with Him. As we spend time with Him, we develop His character and begin to look like and speak like our Father. The word of God that begins to sustain us, and comes out under test and trail, guides us, comforts us, makes provision for us, heals us, and nurtures our spiritual understanding must be sown into our hearts by the Holy Ghost before it manifests it’s work in our lives and brings us into full knowledge of Him.
I first heard the word of GOD at a very young age thinking Sundays were a social event. Brief testimony drugs and alcohol for 35 years , I knew something was missing in my life just wasn’t sure what , my heart was hard as a rock , full of anger hate and rage if it was not right I wanted to do it my flesh ruled what I did, if it felt good I did it. My mother and stepfather prayed for me, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior 17 + years ago being fleshly and wanting to do things my way did not work. I still wanted my way, God had a plan, I would hear Gods word but wouldn’t stand on it, the devil would steal my joy. Between my flesh and thoughts any little mountain was an excuse to do things my way, finally after three time s in prison losing all I worked for all my life , no friends , no family , nothing left , Jesus Christ had my attention, I know what a merciful Lord we serve , people all over the world would pray for me and Jesus Christ opened the doors for me because it was not a possibility for man or money could not help me but my stony heart was finally fleshly and started producing fruit, if you will speak and hear with faith the word of God it will produce fruit in his time.(Romans 10:19)
Prayer. Prayer. And more prayer. God has called us to pray without ceasing. It is our communication from man to a holy God. I truly understand the power and necessity of prayer. There is an urgency in my heart to pray like never before. There is the coming of a one world government so we must pray for our political leaders. The Muslim religion is making its way to public schools so we must pray for our teachers. Many people’s homes are becoming foreclosed so we must pray for our finances. People are getting sick and we must pray for healing in their bodies. We must pray with fervency and zeal like never before. At the same time the Bible says “don’t be anxious in anything but with prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, make your requests known unto God.” (Philippians 4:6) Are you making your requests known unto God and not complaining to man? At the same time, we must be grateful. Enter His gates with thanksgiving and enter His courts with praise. Thanking Him builds our faith up that it is done. It makes God bigger and the problem smaller. There is nothing too hard for Him. Thank You Lord for hearing us and answering our prayers according to your will!
This is a season of new beginnings and great things are in store. This year has been challenging but very rewarding. I am ready for what God has for me and ready to take it on with the boldness of Christ.
This month I can tell our department still continues to grow. We all go do what we need to do and help each other where we need help. It seems to be more proactive than ever. I see growth and more maturity in everyone. I feel more calm in my mind regarding the day. I think I am learning more balance with work at home and the ministry, and spending time with my husband. I tend to want to work instead of relax, but I am learning to do that more. I’m not feeling as intimidated as I felt before. I do feel even more boldness. The Bible says he who wins souls is wise and I really believe that. The more souls I win, the wiser I feel about people and life in general. Some of my family members’ remarks about what I am doing don’t bother me any more. I realize they are blinded by the enemy and I pray the Lord will open their eyes. I feel more prepared to do whatever the Lord wants me to do. I know he will provide because he always does. It is hard to believe that I only have one more month and I know the Lord still has more for me to learn. I am learning to expect more from the Lord than I have been. He is a good God and wants to only give us good things. He is with us always, even when we don’t feel like he is. I’m speaking out loud how I want my day to go now. It has been great!
I never thought I would sit where I am currently sitting, or know God how I know him, or for that matter even be alive if it weren’t for the effect that Revival Ministries International has had on my life, and the lives of my family. I thank God for Pastors Rodney and Adonica. I came to live in Tampa two years and one month ago. I moved here with my mom shortly after my father passed away. My dad was a pastor of a Rhema church in Kissimmee Florida.
It was a sudden and devastating loss; I was only sixteen years old at the time. I grew up in a Pentecostal church my entire life, but I had never fully received the baptism of the Holy Spirit and I really did not know God. I knew about God but I never knew him as my Heavenly Father. I thought I had a free ticket into heaven because my father was a pastor. I was oblivious to the truth.
When I was 15 years old, my dad, my sister and I went to the Great Awakening Tour in Miami Florida. One night after the service my dad and my sister and I got a chance to talk to Pastor Rodney. While we were talking he told my sister and I that if we ever wanted to attend RBI or RSW that we would have scholarships. I picked up an RSW pamphlet and started talking to my dad about how I would love to go there one day, but that I wanted to go to Rhema like he did. I had other plans for my self but God knew what he was doing.
When I got the scholarship I had no idea that I would one day end up living in Tampa while my mom would attend RBI. At summer camp, with Pastors Allen and Kristin and the youth group August of 2010 God spoke to me and told me that my Rhema plans were not what he had for me. I had already gone to their college weekend and I was really trying to make it work so I could go there. God also informed me that I was going to go to the RSW. This past august at summer camp God confirmed his word again. The Fire of God touched me in a way it never has before. I literally felt fire all over my body and my face. I was screaming, crying and laughing all at the same time. While he was touching me he was showing me all the times in my life where the devil tried to steal my joy and how it DIDN’T work. He was showing me that I had victory in him. I knew from that night on that I was in the right place.
This RBI/RSW revival had been utterly life changing. God has really broken down walls I had no idea even existed. I now have an intense passion to be a radical giver. He has shown me how sewing and reaping REALLY works! On Thursday of the third week I gave my purse, my iPod and my electric guitar away as seed.
I believed God for a laptop, a Mac Book specifically. On Sunday Dave Leszchek asked me to come out to the lobby and handed me his laptop which was exactly the laptop I had been believing God for! I was overwhelmed with joy and I just felt the love of God all over me. I was just blown away by his goodness. He provided for me exactly what I needed. He is so faithful. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me this year! It feels amazing to be doing the will of God and be directly in the center of what he has for me……